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Length of film: 95 minutes
In collaboration with Albert Elings (editor), Peter Delpeut (creative advisor), Sergio Gonzàlez Cuervo (sound designer) and Lotte van den Berg (dramaturg) and platform SoAP (Space oriented Artistic Practice).
Financially supported by De Korte Verbeelding: a collaboration between Film Fonds and Mondriaan Fonds / Dommering Fonds / AFK / platform SoAP.
“It all started with you lighting a candle. You told me to not disturb you. You were going to do something.The following night you did it again. Well, it started happening more often. With more and more candles. And the hours increased.
I remember one evening...it had been silent for a while. I went in to check on you. And you had fallen asleep, and I blew out the candles which woke you up. You got so angry. As if I had ruined something. You said it, too...that I’d ruined something."
The protagonist of the desktop film Lourdes TV watches daily for hours the webcam footage of the Cave of Apparitions. She follows with fascination the rigid routines of priests and nuns, how they prepare for Mass. She recognizes returning pilgrims as old acquaintances. The woman with her purple-pink backpack, waving at the webcam every day. Or the man with beret, trying to capture healing energy in various ways. She sympathizes with the desire of the visitors who want to touch the cave with their own hands. She watches live as the staff member lights the candles each morning. For a year, it marks her beginning of the day. It gives her a sense of power that she knows what will happen next. But why can't she separate herself from that, from these people who cling wholeheartedly to faith in the Virgin Mary's miraculous powers?
Is there a woman she herself can no longer reach? A love that has eluded her? Is this where she hopes to understand her girlfriend's mystic delusions?
Gradually, a personal story of love, letting go and loss unfolds. Pilgrims come and go: the comfort of strangers, 1300 kilometers away.